I’m definitely one of those people who can’t sit still, I am always in need of constant change and adventure and whether I find that in going to the gym, reading or dancing, my heart is always content when I’m travelling. When I look at this photo, all I can think of is the joy and fun that I had in Vanuatu, one of my favourite places in the world to be. I miss it. So badly. Getting back into my routine of Uni and work is good, but nothing beats the feeling you get when you’re travelling the world.
Today I caught up with an old friend that I hadn’t seen in over two years. And it was really great to see them and how much both of us have grown up since we finished high school. We were once quite close, but as life happens, you drift away from certain people, however, you never seem to lose that ‘connection’ and understanding of each other. And today, it was like we had never lost touch, and I found myself believing again… something I thought I’d never do again. So if you are reading this. Thank you for making me believe in myself again.
Friends… can be amazing, but they can also be terrible. I’ve experienced both. When I first started high school I became friends with a group of girls who, at the time, I thought, were amazing. Ohhhhh how I was wrong, terribly, terrifyingly wrong. Little did I know that these group of girls would lead me into a death spiral of severe depression and self hate. It fucking sucked. I endured this for the next 4 years of my high schooling life. But overtime I realised that I needed to get out of that toxic relationship, however I never had the guts to do it. I didn’t have a backbone. I was practically a puppet. But one day, things changed. Something inside of me snapped back, something inside of me kickstarted the fighter that I am today. And I got myself out that death spiral. From then on I woke up, woke up to what was happening around me, at home and what I had been going through.
I hadn’t re-lived those memories from high school for a really long time, but they popped back into my head today when I was out with my mates. We were having such a good conversation, sipping our drinks and devouring some wedges, when I suddenly thought, this group of people that I’ve met are amazing, these are the group of people that I was supposed to meet all along. When you find that group of friends, who you just click with, who understand you, who accept you for who you are and do not judge, you should hang on to them. People come and people go. That is what happens in life. I’ve had so many people walk out of my life and very few walk in. But for those who have stayed, I am forever grateful and happy.
There are days where I think back on life in high school, and I ask myself this question: “Who would I be if things had been different?” Would I be happier? Would I be sadder?
But then again, why dwell on the past when the present is so much more satisfying.
So, today i started a new blog! It was kind of a spontaneous decision, but hey, aren’t those the best! At the moment i’m not too sure what i’ll use this blog for, but i guess we’ll find out. So if anyone reads this, you’ll be seeing ramblings about my life, travel plans and pretty much whatever else i decide to post!
Heres to a new year and to new beginnings 🙂
– April 🙂