Is how i’ve been feeling this past week. You can mask the pain and the emptiness. But at the end of the day, it comes rushing back in tenfold.
It’s a hard feeling to describe… I guess it feels like your heart isn’t there anymore, you’re numb to everything around you. And anything can trigger a deeper spiral. Sometimes you want to reach out… but most of the time you don’t. You don’t want to see the judgement on their faces, you don’t want to hear the “but you were fine yesterday, what happened?”question and you don’t want to drag someone into the spiral with you.
So you don’t.
You pull yourself together, you tell yourself that “it has been worse”, that “you are strong”, that you’re a fighter. And each time, it gets better and better and you get stronger and stronger.